The Chronicles of Zyelle: The Day I Met Reality
Monday, July 14, 2008
This is what it feels like when reality makes it way into your fairytale world.
I never saw it coming, but anticipated it from the first glimpse of happiness I hesitantly embraced. I knew better. This pain I’m feeling, nothing could possibly compare. Nothing could shake me from this state. So I’ve chosen to write about it. To express myself in the only way I know how at this point. I’m not sure how this will grab you, but I only ask that you keep an open mind to my journey. So, here it is, my life.
I’ll start with some facts about myself first, so you know who your reading about. My full name is Jordyn Zyelle James, but everyone calls me Zyelle. I raised myself in a house full of failure and disappointment under my mother. My mother wasn’t a junkie or alcoholic. She just didn’t care enough about me to teach me about life. So I turned to the person I trusted most for guidance, myself. Sure, I’ve made some mistakes in the past and I’m sure I’m making some as I write this, but that’s life and I’m just living it. I relied on books and society to help form boundaries and a moral code I should be proud of . And I relied on my peers to help me break them. But this journal is about the here and now. The future I’m determined to face head on.
January 1,2008
Waking up today was hell. I felt like I had been dead for a decade. I just laid in bed trying to remember what happened to me yesterday, trying to match truth with the lies I’m trying to replace it with. Wondering if things are really as bad as I remember them to be. Did I really kill Tracey???
To Be Continued…..
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