Youthful Mistakes

In a tough spot
Can't breathe
My need to get away
Stronger than life
Needing more time
A way to erase the minds involved
Future far from sight
Distant memory a myth
Only the present sends bricks to spine weighing me down
Holding my breath
Hurricanes in my stomach
Pain in my sight
Why don't I listen
Mimic the good
Imitate the rules play by play
Crazy were my thoughts
Fear controls my mind
I try to sweat it out
Like a cold it takes it time
There are many ways I could have prevented
There were plenty of opportunities to cover my tracks
Repeated delay
Against intelligence
How do I explain
I can't explain
I won't excuse
Or can I
I'll tell you what this is
A lesson learned
The young becoming new to adulthood
Claiming responsibly
I guess I don't know it all
I'm just a kid playing an adult game